ON OBEDIENCE

My heart sings this song out loud. I want to obey the Lord. I don't wanna go anywhere else than where He wants me to be. Call me crazy or a fool...

Today, I sit on my office table and ask myself the same question I ask every single day: "What  will I do today?"

Every day the answer I could think of is this: Work!

Definitely. I go to the office to work. This is my job. But aside from the daily routine of facing my computer screen all day and doing tasks that were assigned for me to do, what is the essence of what I'm doing?

Still, the past events of my life come back to me and almost every single day, I ask myself why I am in this specific place, at this specific time, doing what I'm specifically doing? And the hardest question still is: Why am I doing this?

As I was on my daily scriptural reading this morning, I figured out the answer to my hardest question. I am here because I wanted to obey. To simply obey. Things may not be as easy as I have expected. In fact, sometimes I wanted to go back to that moment in my life six months ago and see if there is anything I could do to change the decisions I have made for myself. When I look back to that moment six months ago, and review what has happened to my life now, I have no regrets. I knew I just obeyed.

I may not yet be as happy as I used to be back then. I may be missing a lot of things, and I may be dreaming and hoping that I never had to make that decision. But there is one thing that's always better than the feeling of happiness - PEACE.

My heart is crying right now. The tears it sheds have nowhere to be placed. I keep it inside. This is how I release it. I miss people. I miss laughter. I miss fun. I miss playing. I miss coffee... But I am here now because I have to be here. I needed to just obey.

Obedience to God doesn't always mean you have to be happy one hundred percent of the time. Obedience sometimes may also mean you have to sacrifice several things - sometimes, they have to be things that make you happy or comfortable.

But how do I know that I was obeying His will? There is peace. Peace I have in my heart that I haven't felt for a long time. Peace in every situation that I encounter. Peace I feel every time I learn new things about my new job, and the spark of hope that there is some valuable reason why I am right here, right now. Peace in the new relationships I am building with the people around me.

Yeah, following God is not at all easy. But He provides the energy, comfort, and peace that we would ever need along this journey called life.

Live life in obedience to the One who has called you!